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I cried. Nobody knows.
They can say I dont love u as much as u love me.
But as they dont know I cried over u, they juz have no idea how much I love u.

Attention n Affection

Im sorry Im not in the mood of forgivivg pipel. U dissapointed me.. When u said I need attention n when Phye said I need affection, YES!!! I need. Both. Especially from u. I know I cant force u to only have ur life with me. But at least meet me in 1day once. Just once is enough. More than enough for me . Is that sooo hard?

We r close in distance but far from each other. That is us to me.

i.b.u.

Ibu..
Ina mintak maaf sgt2.. Ina cume terase sikit je bile dorg kutuk. Cakap2 belakang. Ina tak suke. Ina nak ibu tau ina sayang ibu sangat..Ape pon ina wat Ina igt ibu n ayah. Exam tak ok Ina nanges, buka sbb Ina, sebb harapan ibu n ayah berkecai..
Ina da kecewekan ibu drp UPSR sampai la SPM. Ina taknak kecewekan ibu lg. Ina study sggh sebb ibu. Ina tau ibu nak sgt tgk Ina bjaye. InsyaAllah bu. Doakan ina. Ina anak sulong. Besar tggjwb. Kene tnjk cth adik2. Ina tau.. Ina sedar. Nanti Ina yg kene tlg adik2. Ina tak pandai sgt bu.. Ina mintak tlg sgt ibu doa tuk Ina.. Supaye bjaye dunie akhirat. Terime kasih bu. Ade masenye Ina jatuh n naik, ibu yg ade,.. Ibu tak pernah puas dgn semue keputusan Ina. Sedangkan org luar cakap da ckup bagus da dyg.. Kdg2 Ina pon cam tny cane nak puaskan ati Ibu. Tapi bile Ina pk balik, bile Ibu tak puas ngn result Ina tu la yg wat Ina lg sggh2 n wat Ina tak senang puas ati ngn result yang ala kadar.. Terime kash bu..

Terus doakan Ina ye..

Sorry

I love u WMKS.. Sorry byk sgt emo lately neh.. Tunggu la jap.. 1mggu je k.. Then I promise InsyaAllah,, Ok da pastu..
Sorry.

Love,

D.Am

Coincidence

On this heavy rainy day.. I still want to post an entry.. Hahahha..

Oh ya.. 1 more thing dat I really forget to write.

On last Thursday, Phye had invited or shud I say ask me to accompany her to go to this one audition of a theater. In IIUM of course. At first I was laughing at her and said : " You r sooooooo drama queen".. And I was like ok la.. I'll acompany u. But will not involve in the audition dat nyte.

Jowi was asked to accompany her also. And so it happened dat the three of us went to the waiting room and sit there. phye took the form. And so did Jowi. And I was like... oh Jowi wanted to be auditioned too. They tried to persuade me to join and I say I didnt want to.

And it soooo happened dat Im interested in joining them to be auditioned. Juz cuz u know. I love this thing ever since I was small. And I was like ok! It was for fun. I didnt really want to join pon.. But ya la kan.. I did the audition. I needed to sing to do a poem and to act.

The funniest part was that in the acting part. the scene was I am a gedik girl who was asking her bf for a new hp. I was assisted by Naza. thx..

Dayang: U.. Tgk my hp.. Buruk dah.. I nak Hp baru.. Boleh kan kan kan?

Naza: ohh.. Nak hp baru.. Boleh2.. Jom tgk2..

Dayang: I nak hp tu u.. Iphone 3g tu.. Murah je u.. ribu2 je..

Naza: huh? ala u.. Hmm u gune la hp u tu dulu .. Buruk je.. Bukan rosak pon..

Dayang: Ala u.... ( sambil hentak2 kaki)

Naza: I belikan la sok k.. U thn la kjap.. Jap je..

Dayang: Ap tahan2?! I dah tak tahan tau tak?!

Hahhaha.. Naza at that tym was like 'ap yg dyg maksudkan'.. And I was like 'can it be bad meaning'.. And we laughed outloud after dat.. Hhahhaha.. Obscene !

To complete the story, yesterday, there was this one text saying Congratulations.. U r chosen to be part of the theater as a supporting role. And I was like hahahahah.. Ok la..

Pengalaman sekali seumur idop. So I did accept the offer. Hhhahah.. Enjoy my acting nanty ya!

Muhasabah Diri

Bile kite sedar ramai benci kite, jgn salahkan yg ramai tuh.. Sebab dorg majority.. Mesti ade sebab. So muhasabah la diri carik kelemahan sendiri.. Janganlah asek nak tunding jari.. Kesalahan kite, kite tak nampak.. Pk2 kan lahh.. Nape orang ramai tak suke kite? Daripada menyalahkan org lain kononnya org lain wat cite baik la kite cermin diri kite cane, jgn pk kite bgs sgt sampai takde ruang tok org benci.. Setiap manusia ade kelemahan.. Termasok la kite.. Jgn asek nmpk kelemahan org.

Bcz only then u know how to appreciate frens!.. Maybe kawan2 lari sebb kite tak pndai jage ati kawan.. Kdg2 kite kene byk mengalah.. Jgn rase penat mengalah kalau betol nak berkawan ramai.. Bile berkawan, frens juz dun back bite each other.. BFF apatah lg.. Jgn consider kite as s BFF org when kite still kutuk belakang2.. Terimalah kawan2 kite ape adenye.. Cantik ke buruk ke.. Kaya ke miskin ke.. Pandai ke tak brapa ke.. Bussuk ke wangi ke.. Ape gunenye kite sebagai kawan.. Tentu la nak membetolkan kpd yg lebih baik.. Kawan pon utk mase susah n senang.. Bukan senang je..

One more thing, dont trust ur frens too much.. Kite ni kene la simpan ape yg perlu disimpan drp org yg kite tak rase bertggjwb menyimpannya. Kite pon kene la phm bile ade kawan2 kite simpankan something drpd kite. Ade sebbnye.. Jgn pakse.. Kene bine tembok kepercayaan lu, baru boleh dikongsi sumenye.. jgn suke2 mbuke pekung di dada..

Pilihla kawan yg tol2 kawan.. Tak semestinye kawan da lame tu kawan sejati kite. Tak semestinye jugak kawan baru kite takleh dipercayai. Buka mate.. Buke hati.. Baru kite tau sape lawan sape kawn sebenarnye..

PMS Part2

Now I can confirm why am I acting weirdly eversince couple of weeks ago..
PMS!!!!
So to all that i've hurted in any ways , Sorry ya..
Natural thingy .. Cant run from that..
And now Im having back pain! Shusshh! Painful though. I cant stand to stand or even to walk.. Shusshhh!!
Hmmm..