i dont have life anymore

Pagi2 bgn.. Mate bengkak gile.. Huhu..
Dyg.. Plz kuat.. Stop crying... Ape pon kau tak buat kat rumah ni..
Move on..... Sakit sikit je dyg.. Sikit jee..
Jgn igt .. Jgn recall...

Cani tak terigt.. Kat gombak ni pon ade ape kenangn .. Huhu.. Kat rumah.. Port gayot.
Ya Allah.... Tolong la hamba Mu ini.. Kuatkan aku ya Allah..
Ya Allah.. Aku mohon berikanlah die kesihatan yg sempurna..
Ya Allah.. Aku mohon nampakkan lah jalan kalau betol jodoh aku bersamenye dan tutupkanlah terus pintu hati aku ini jika memang tiada jodoh antara kami..

Kuat dayang!!!!!!!!! Kuat!!!!! Dah2.. Jgn nangis.. Kat rumah ni kau sorg2.. Takde sape nmpk.. Takde sape nak lapkan airmata kau. Takde sape nak pnjmkan kau bahu that u can lean on. Kuat!!!!!!!!! jgn nangis lagi!!!! Stop!!!!!!!!

Kau yang maintak break kan? Padan la muke... Baru la aku tau knp ade org sggp bunuh diri untuk cinte :)

Love is mystery. Love is painful. Im hurted by love.
Cepatlah.. Datang lah. Another love story... That I can forget the old one..

Tell me how can I ever forget u!!!! How can I ever forget the love that still in my heart!!! Tell me how can I find a better guy when I can only see u!!!!! How can I .. How shud I! Tell me!!!!!!! I hv a very tough life.. How can I get thru it alone? When I can still see him in any ways...? I am not me now. I am weak.... Tak larat nak nangis dah. Tapi ape yg boleh aku buat????? Tell me what I hv to do?????? Teringat saat2 kite bahagie.... Happynye kite ;)

Jangan Igt!!! NAnty kau jadi gile.... Dulu die pernah cakap operate lah.. nanti die ade nak teman aku.. Aku taknak operate!!!!!!!! Bia ak sakit sampai bile2!! Sebb die da takleh teman aku..

Thx for the memories. Sorry for everything...

Maybe

To someone. U know who u are..



I maybe can find someone better but can I ever love the better guy better.?
My answer : NEVER!

A Year to Remember

Sem 01 2009/2010....
Diterime masok ke UIA Nilai.. (tukar course from ICT to BEN)
Nilai bosan gile. Panas. Dah la katil atas. MAcam sauna.
Tiap2 minggu balik.
Budak Nilai sosial. PJ lg best.
Dpt masok Group5 core courses. Dapat kenal kawan kat situ.
Sebab budak baru, ak diam je .. Takde org knl ak.
Berkawan dgn Pika, Bila, Tasha, IedA n Ma. Dila n Syira juge.
Dak laki lak Paan n Khutaibah je.. Khu sebb rapat ngn Nik n Syira.
Paan lak sebb penah lepak skali...
Dapat lecturer best2. Mdm Mum, Bro Charlie, Mis Atiqah.
Had fun dgn dak2 group..
Pas midsem, rapat dgn wan n dudi lak. Lepak sekali.
Pas field trip drama kat KLPAC, kitorg p makan ngn Bro Charlie, wan n dudi kat kedai nasi lemak terbaik Nilai ;)..
PAs field trip, dak2 makin rapat. Satu kelas. Kene wat drama presentation.
Practice sampai lewat malam. Makin rapat.
Satu malam first tym overnyte ngn Dudi, wan, Phye n Jowi.
Nak anta Jowi Lcct. ON kat assalam Chempaka. Best! Start tu rapat ngn Phye n Jowi.
Study tuk Final same2. Best gile. Pokyea pon start rapat tym tu. Taqin juge.
Tym overnyte. Cuti bape mggu. Rindu kat geng2.



Sem 02 2009/2010
Start sem dgn bad news.
Lain group. Ak n Phye. Jowi, Akma, Dudi, Pokyea, Wan n Taqin. Pika n Bila.
But then still rapat.
Every lunch makan kat kawah thai kol 1.
Every dinner kol8 kat mane2 ktorg nak. Kdg2 kat kawah, abes2 sem kat teabox. Seronok.
Tapi study ak cam tahi kambing huhu.
Selaluye camtu lah rutin.
Tapi.........
Da abes2 sem, Jowi stat hilang. Muq pulak...
Ade krisis wan n phye.
Last2 yg lepak same ak n Akma je.
Abes pon dgn bad things. Huhu.
Thx to Pika n Bila for being the same all the way! Love u! ;)


Jumpe kat Gombak!!!

Nilai

Finally.. Nilai is over. Once it is heaven and sometimes hell.. Tu la Nilai.. all the memories takkan pernah ak lupe.. How I get soooo many frens there. I had a bf there. The greatest one. Huhu. So sad that I hv to go away from Nilai. and yet i am glad that Nilai time is over. Bcz lately there are soo many problems in Nilai that I want to go back. To all Nilaians frens.... Thx for being my frens and thx for all the memories..

My bunnies: Pika, Bila, Tasha..
Group 5..
Melodrama hatiku : Akma, phye, jowi, Shira, Taqin, Pokyea, Muq..
E-3-6 : Atyn, Ina, Shiqa, Misz, Ziema dll..
Childhood frens: Nik adilah and Farouq Johari.

Special thnks to Wan Muhammad Khairul Syafiq for making Nilai is the best place for me to stay as I hv u.. We are frens remember? ;)

Take good care of urselves frens.. Sorry for everything. Anything inform..

This sem VS Last sem

Things are juz so different lately.. EVERYTHING I mean.. Every single thing. Ohh. How I wish I could make tym goes back to last sem. I had great time last sem. Serious shit!!! Pika and Bila.. How we gossiped with each other about every single thing. They knew everything bout me. And I believe that I did know almost everything bout them. I had great lecturers too. Bro Charlie,Mdm Mumtazah and all.. I had great pointer also!! I had the greatest tym!!! I enjoyed every single second..

I had great time when I am nobody. Well Im not saying that I am somebody this sem. Hmm. Last sem, nobody knows me that well except for Pika n Bila n the gang. I am a newbie. Nobody noticed me at all. I moved from PJ. In class, I would talk to only my gang and Nik and Syira. The rest? Naah.. I couldnt even remember their names. Everything changed when I was close to this one particular boy in that class. Bcoz I was close to him, I am known as his 'close fren'. I am happy with him though. Real happy!! Seriously shit!!!!

Things are different this sem. I prefer last sem though. I had great great moment.... Hmm.. How I wish I could make time goes back.. ;(

Fight..

To have fight with anyone is sooooo not in my dictionary of life. I dont like fighting. I mean I hate fighting. I need to stop all those things. Even I am not the one who create the fight, I juz need to clear things up. I am not afraid though. Seriously shit, I want to stop fighting. I want to stop make enemy with people. Even though u guys dont want to make frens with me.. I juz want to make the whole things STOP!!! Because I realize that friends can also be our enemies. So, I dont want to make frens nor enemies. I need mates. Thats all.. ;)

FAmily First

Years of not publishing any post.. Loads of things happened and yet to happen..

People always said to me family first. Even without frens u can always live ur life with family. I didnt agree at first. I need frens all the time. But now I realize...

Frens are not everything. When u have nobody to trust, family always be there for you. When u are being betrayed by frens, Family always be there for u.. When u fail with ur love story, family always be there for u.. When u put ur 100% trust on ur frens, they will eventually cheat on you. Family is otherwise. Family never cheat, never lie. Family always tell the truth.. I had enough with my so called frens.. I love them tough.

Well.. having said all that... Not all my frens are not to be trusted. There are some of them that reaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllly gud frens.. But I wont name anyone. U know who u are. U do know whether u have been a good fren for me or not. ;)