Campur Aduk.

Kehidupan di uni : So far..... Quite ok lahh. Masih nak membiasekan diri dgn alam sekitar. Kelas jauh. Bilik ok. Rumet : OK sgt!~ Classmates : Pon ok!~ Lecturer : Ok gak. Assignment : TAK OK! Haih. Menimbun nih. Haiyakk.!~

Pencarian lelaki hensem dah bermule. Haha. Seperti bese mate saye melilau mencari mmt ensem. Haha! Ade je dowh. Ramai pulak. Tapi saye tabahkan hati ini. Bf nak campk mane pulak. Campak mane2 lu jap leh takk?? Hahah!~

Oh ha. My sis ade mengutarekan cite lawak jenake. Makcik saye mengorek rahsie katenye ngn c tra.

"C ina ngn c polan polan tuh dah takde ape ke?"

" Takde dah. Dah break off beberape bulan yg lalu. Knp?"

" Saje lahh . Nak tgk sape yg dapat menantu dulu. Ibu ke ? "

Hahahahhaha!~ Gelak2 guling2 aku dalam kete. Wahai my dearest auntie, jauh lagi perjalanan nih ha. Haha. Kalau still lagi pon ngn polan tuh, tak lame lagi akan break gak. Kalau ade bf br pon, kalau anak dato', leh sapot saye nih, skang saye trime!~ Haha. Ni bf pon same2 study. Nak bg makan ape? Rumput.? Kelakar. Haha. Lawak antarebangse tol lahh. Lagi satu list ciri2 bakal husband saye :

1. kacak dan bergaye.

2. kete ade at least 2 buah. 1 leh die bg aku pinjam.

3. sore ala2 shahir ke, anuar zain ke.

4. stylo mylo hilo.

5. dpt memberi ape yg aku mintak.

Ha.. Sume ciri tuh cam takde je dalam diri bf aku!~ Hahahahaha. Takdelah. Ni ciri bakal husband saye. ;

1. Menyayangi saye sepenuh hati.

2. Solat cukup 5 waktu,

3. Puase penuh.

4. Jauh dr clubbg mende tuh.

5. Bebas drugs n alcohol.

6. TERUNE!~

7. Yg bisa membimbing. (dpt yg lg teruk, haru aku!)

Ha. Sape2 yg rase nak jd husband saye (cam takde je. haha) , sile2. Submit borg. Pastikan ciri2 tuh ade. Haha. Yg nak jd tp tak cukup syarat. Make sure improve diri supaye leh jd somi saye. Haha!~

Caca Marba

Bersawang. Berhabuk. Haha.

Buku Baru : Delete. Delete. Delete.!~ Skang ni tgh proses 'penyucian' diri. Haha. Done.!~ Actually. Bende yg ade dlm hati ni susah sikit nak bg org lain phm. So wat cool. Wat cam biase. Simpan dalam je dyg. HAHA. Mende tah. It doesnt worth my time at all. Wah. Ayat someone aku pnjm. Haha. Dalam memory card aku nih, byk sgt bende dah. So, kene delete bnde tak perlu. Remain yg perlu sje. Dalam fb pon aku perlu buang bnde yg perlu dibuang. !~ 'Remove connection' cam memutuskan persahabatan. Tapi takpe. Dapat ape pon berkawan ngn org2 sebegitu rupe. Kan.? :) Saye tak rugi sikit pon. Ok. Proceed.

Bile pipi tembam cam hape, dagu ade due, serabai & serabut, hidung kembang.. CAm buruk kan.!~ Haha! Tp tu lah aku. Hahahah. Ok . Post ngutuk diri sendiri. Tak penah terase diri ni cantik pon. Apetah lagi hot. Comel tu..?? Sipi lah. HAHA!~ Takde lah. Sedar diri ini insan hina. Tapi saya tak layak dihina. (Ayat emo) haha.!~ Tah lah. Kecomelan, kecantikan dan kehotan tuh subjektif kan. Bia mate yg menilai. Or let the hati yg menilai. :) . Kdg2 pelik jugak , cane lahh ade gak yg jatuh suke ngn minah pp tembam nih, selebet lagi. Haha. Bak kate hatim. Personaliti memain peranan. Kau cantik mane pon, kau hot mane pon, kau gile kemas pon, gedik ttp gedik. Haha. Tbe2. Tak. Ini post mengenai diri ini. Hmm. Camane kau menelaah istilah comel tuh..? Camane pulak kau mentafsir istilah serabai tuh.? Setengah org , serabai tuh lah yg comel. hahahahha! Kan..? As long as ade org yg nak trime kau as the way you are. That is enough.!~

*post caca marba. haha!

It Hurts So Much. Tq~

Ohhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is too harsh. Too harsh from you. I wish I have not known it!! I wish I have not read it.!

Tq!~

ABC 123

Complex is you and me,

Through all those days, it aint at all easy,

Though it seems to be running smoothly,

I just know it aint easy.

As they say easy is like ABC,

Rather I would pronounce we are 123,

Coz when ABC ends with a Z,

Counting is infinity.

They think we are fire and water,

When I feel we are way better,

For you are the butter,

Completing the bread on the toaster.

When he says 'I need you',

She claims 'I heart you',

They state 'I love you',

I would love to say I am all for you.

Saje2 wat. And secare tak sengaje. TERade kaitan lakk. TAk best pon poem nih. Just nak practice lahh sikit2 kan for poetry class. I have to do an elegy poem. Arghhh! I just hate poetry. Like seriously. Pfft.

Ps: Woi weh weh. Kalau kau nak poem nih, amek lahh. Kire aku bg kat kau lahh. Haha.

Finally, This Post IS for you!~

Finally dpt online kat Uia nih ha. Tu pon agak lembab ye kawan2. Ni pon pinjam lappy my fren..Ok back to work.

This post is specially dedicated to someone special. (wahh!) Atas paksaan. Haha. Too many things that we have gone thru together kan walaupun tak lahh byk sgt. But ya. To make it this far, it aint easy! To make desicion finally to be with you, is not an easy thing at all. I bet you know that. And you know how hard is that for us to be really together. I thought soo many things before I've made up my mind.

1. You are who to whom.
2. What might the 'whom' think about it.
3. What might ur frens of his frens think about it.
4. The perception of people.
5. You are a man. (haha. paranoid)
6. Am I really ready for the next relationship.
7. Can I love you like I loved the one before you.
8. Can you appreciate and treat me as the way I deserve.
9. Can you make me even happier than before.
10. Are you the one.

There were many more questions in my head before I came to the decision. Kau tu sape pade sape. That was the hardest part of all. Sebb tu lahh yg membawa kepade persoalan lain. Haih. People who know u and me and the other person or people, they might have said "Dayang, dah takde laki lain ke kau nak pilih? Kenape die?". And then I told my frens about this, they said, "To be honest , that sounds not good." And I know it does.! People will always say, "hey! Kenape die yg kau pilih?" . And I certainly dont like that. And I may be hated by ur frens which are my frens and die for choosing you. "Dayang , jht lahh kau." And even ade yg kate, " Kau sure kau syg die becoz of him himself. ? Kau sure yg die bukanlahh pengisi jiwa kau yg kekosongan pas break off? (takdelahh camtu ayat nye. tp lebih kuranglahh. haha) ". That was when I had my second thought. Ohh. Maybe aku rase cam aku syg die sbb die ade tym aku sorg2. Die ade tym aku nangis takde sape tau. Die ade just nak wat aku gelak. Die ade sebab kesian kan aku yg macam ape tuh. That is y i cannot let him go. And plus, I 've just had my most heartbreaking relationship. Trauma and paranoid. With men. That was my very first tym yg sakit camtu. So, to have a new relationship soooooooooo soon ..??? Oh no no no no. I didnt dare to commit to anyone yet. And I know how much I loved him and u know it too right. How hard for me to really throw him away. Sooooooooo many things I've thought.

And then I thought them back. Again and again. This is my life. Not theirs. I mean they can say whatever they want to say. But can they make me happy like he did and he still does? NO!. They are no one to me. Let they think what they wanna think. If I always think about it, then when will I be happy. I suffered so much. And now, I need to think perception org yg takde kene mengene dah dalam hidup aku?? It suffers me even more. You guys are not in my place. Thus, YOU. yes. You guys do not have any right to judge me and why I did that , not this. I realize now that I need my old life back. I need to be as cheerful as I can be and he was the only person who can make me happy at that time. Korg?? P mane?? Tah ke mane. And skang nak ckp macam2 pasal aku? Haha. And kalau korg pk aku nak main2kan die or anything lahh, korg silap lahh. Aku pompuan. Bukan lelaki. Lelaki ye lah mungkin nak mainkan perasaan org. I know how hard to be toy. And I wont toy anyone's feelings ya. And if korg rase aku akan tgglkan die untuk the other die. Silap besar lahh. Huhu. He loves me wholeheartedly. (hope so). This is what I can sense . Never been loved so much like this. Never been treated like this. Kenape saye perlu ade second thoughtuntuk terime die. I realize that I love him cz he loves me so much. Bukan pengisi . Bukan pengganti. How can I reject someone who loves me that much. I dont even bare to let him go. Persetankan sume org( wahh. ayat novel) . I just want to be with him as long as he loves me. He accepts me as the way I am. I can accept him as the way he is. Before this, many have said, " Dayang, u deserve better than before". And yes. You are wayyyyy better . In what?? In treating me. And in loving me. I deserve someone like you. (tayah nak suke sgt) haha. So, now, Aku dah wat keputusan nak bersame ngn die, I have to face kate2 org ni lahh. La. Korg nih. Takyah nak kate2 sgt lahh. Korg tak phm. Korg lelaki. Mane phm. So, dok diam2. Tayah nak sibuk pasal hal rumah tangge org. Ok?? Dont worry. I'll treat him nicely ya. Bile aku dah decide nak dgn die, maknenye, I'll appreciate him as the way he appreciates me. I 'll love him as the way he deserves. I just need someone who truly loves me to be mybf. And die ade criteria tu. Tak slah kan kawan2? Ohh. Ye . N die hensem. (heheheheh)

For you,
Nah. About you this one long post. Bace selagi mmpu. Haha. I love you!. Thanks sbb syg org. Kau yg selalu wat aku gelak. Sebenarnye tym aku marah2 tuh, ade je tergelak sebb lawak bengong kau tuh. Haha. Tp coverline. Saye kene jd pompuan garang dgn awak. I dont wanna be a very-understanding-yet-a-boring gf. Haha. So, kene garang. Thanks sebb thn ngn perangai org. A new me yg suke marah2. And suke kongkong. Sorry if tak suke. Tp lantak lahh kalau kau tak suke . Haha. Thanks cz let me be myself when being with you. And aku tak suke penipuan kau tau kan. Hehe. So, if ever awak ade wat bende org tak suke spt ****** tuh, tell me. ok?? Jgn nak tipu2. Org tak suke. And I can sense lies. Seriously. I know when people lie to me. Like seriously. And prove to me plzz that all men are not the same. Proof to me, u r not the same as the other guys who love to lie and do not knw how to appreciate someone's love. Any probs between u and me is within u and me je ok. Privacy katenye. I love you. And ya. Jgn nak cinte sgt ngn org lahh. Coz org kate perbezaan cinte and benci tuh sgt nipis. A very tiny little line seperates them. Org tanak one day if anything happen, awak benci org. Org dah experience bnde nih. Its true. In Islam pon kate, be moderate in everything. But I appreciate ur love, ur care, ur misses towards me. No one can do it better than you, my 'ensem' bf. HAHAHA! :0 .I love you!~~ Thanks for every single thing ya. Org doa selalu awak ngn org will always be together, Org nak lame ngn awak. Like seriously. Tak tipu punye. Love you!~ (haih. jiwANG2 SGT PON TAKLEH NIH) hahaahhaha.

Ps: Dah abes tulis. Reward: I need my Lancome plzzzz. Hahahahaha. :))

I am Back With stories.

There are too many things to be shared. Cam dah berkurun dah tak update blog kan. From the very great breaks with Parauks. The Taaruf Week kat Uia Gombak. An evening ngn Ain Af8. My love story. (bosannye) HAhaha.

Ok. My 4-months-sem-break went sooooooooo great. I mean. Having great frens to spent the whole months with makes the break seems so short though. Broga climbing. Kak Nuyun's wedding. Genting. BBq Eps 2. Have spent most of my money to hang out with em. Worth it though. All the parauks. Tq for the memories. Wehheee.

Taaruf week. Ohh. 6th July. Register kat Uia Gombak. The first person that I bumped into on that day is my ex's ex. And I spontaneously said hye to her. We have no reasons now to not be frens kan. Ok. Moving on.. Taaruf week was tiring though. Not enough sleep. And u have to listen to all those talks. And how big Uia Gombak is compared to Nilai or even Pj. From the hall to the mosque. It takes 10mins. Walawey. Gile ke ape kan. But the interesting part was when the cultural perfomances took place. Coooolll!~ Abg percusion hensem woohhh. Haha. Oh ya. Not forgetting tym right after bai'ah ceremony. We are officially a uni student doing bachelors. Wow. Tak sgke uols. Haha. Okeh. Class has started. And almost all subject dah ade assignment! gile. haih. Ohh. I like my BM's and Poetry's lecturer. Gile cool. Hehe. :0

Ok. An evening with Ain. 11 july aritu. Wahh. Bes lahh. Cz get to know Ain lebih dekat gitu kan. Haha. Freak af8 sy?? Agak lah. Ade Mau juge. Sampai paling awal ok. Games , performances. bes. Makan. Snap pictures. Ain n Maumau bes. Mic yg Ain pgg selalu dihulurkan ke sy. Wahh gtew lahh kan. Kate diva mic. Hahaha. Balik paling lambat. Kalau takde kelas soknye, konpem sy join dorg lepak2 minum ptg tuh. Lepak semeje ngn Maumau. Borak2. tgk Ain n maumau gado manje. Sweet doh! Hhahahahha. Oh Mau ade pesan supaye blaja rajin2 d uia tuh. Wehe. Ok mau.!~ Ain, santek. !~


Love story?? Hmm. Takde ape yg menarik. Haha. No no no. My love story is somethng to b kept within me n him only. Privacy katenye, HAHA!~ (padehal malas nak tulis pasal kau.) :))


Till then! :)

Sixth sense.

Sixth Sense..

Go away. I dont like you! Plzz. T_T.
Analyzing people is no funn! Haih.