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Saturday, November 27, 2010

5 months.

Happy Anniversary awak! Ily. :)

It has been 5 months since we declared to be together. And.......... I am happy. So far , not even a single regret yg dtg kat hati nih. Alhamdullilah. Berkat doa kita. And I am praying that we will be forever. amiinnnn.

Teringat tym zaman2 'mude' dulu. mude merujuk kepade zaman mase mule2 nak on ah. HAHA

We started off as frens. Kawan2 ah. Mule2 knl tu tak rapat pon. Bese2 je. And pas break off ngan ex b4 diz, die start text ah . Tanye khabar. Maybe kesian tgk aku meroyan tak tentu pasal kan. HAHA. Biase2 je. And I was damn lonely tym tuh. Sumpah rase lonely thp ape. And die dtg ah konon2 menceriekan hari2 yg datang kan. HAHA. Tapi takde lahh ceriekan sgt pon. Die byk kutuk aku. And die cite die kutuk2 aku depan ex aku tym ex aku tu still bf aku. '-_- . Jahat kann?? Macam2 ah die kate. Ustazah mane lahh? Tak semenggah lahh.. Err Herloww. Cam kau tu semenggah sgt je kan. HAHA. And so, kitorg text and text and text tiap2 ari ah.. And ade tym die takde kedit tu, aku call die. Sampai abes rm10 jugak lahh sehari untuk mamat paling ensem di dunie tuh. HAHA. Mase mule2 nak call tu nervous gak ah. HAHA. bukan sebab ape. Tak penah rapat. Tbe2 je rapat kan. So jadi cam malu ah. Tp ok ah. Everything went well.

Sampai satu tahap, die admit kat aku yg aku nih antare kawan2 pompuan yg die syg ah. *kire cam BFF gitu kan. And and and I was like suke ah. Sebab dalam keadaan aku yg sgt miserable tuh, ade yg nak syg kann. Sape tak suke. even sayang tu sbg kawan je. Rase disayangi gile. And die pon kawan yg baik. I mean when he treated u well, sape yg tak suke kann? And and bile ade yg isi ruang2 kosong kat hati kite. Sape je tak suke..? Walaupun die tak ensem! HAHA. And bile die lyn baik sgt . Sampai tahap tak boleh tak contact. Ade skali tu. Kitorg wat deal. Tayah contact sampai semggu. HAHA. Not once ok. Byk kali gak deal ini cube dilakukan. Tak menjadi. Sebab...? Rindu! :) Taleh ah tak text sehari. Rase tak complete je ari tu *ok muntah skang. HAHA. That was when i think ohhhh. if bende nih melarat, i wouldnt be able to handle it.

Maknenye, hmmm. Susah ah bile laki dan pompuan berkawan baik. Dalam erti kate lain BFF nih lahh. Kawan rapat leh jd. Tp kawan baik, it is something else. Maknenye, kawan baik tu is when you share almost everything with him or her. When u go deep with him or her. Susah lahh kan kalau laki and pompuan berBFF nih. If kau ade couple and ade BFF lain gender , lain cite. Tp ni bile kau due single. And kalau BFF sejak kecik. Kire childhood frens tu pon lain cite. Ni kesnye tbe2 rapat kan. Susah ah! I mean. Bg pompuan ah. Pompuan nih lain sikit dr laki. She cannot handle her feelings. And She even cannot distinguish feelings antare kawan baik lelaki or pakwe. Bende tu cam nak same tau. Tp laki nih die ok. So on je lahh. Nanti pompuan yg merane. Phm takk?? Cam kesian ah. Aku tanak sakit lagi. Cukuplah yg sebelum nih. So I was trying to avoid being so close with him. Still texting. Tp keep reminding myself, dont go overboard. but sometimes, girls cant handle it.! Trust me. Any girls in this whole world. Sebab tu lahh I was asking him that we need to stop now. JGN nak rapat sgt. *yg die tak phm knp. lelaki kan. haih. dah mintak camtu pon keep on contacting each other.

And tibe lahh saatnye bile die confess that he has feelings towards me. Time tuh , aku gelak guling2. HAHA. Sebab....? Before nih, aku penah gurau2 tau, ckp "Kau suke aku ekk?? Jgn weh. Kite taleh weh." Sambil gelak2. Sekali betul die suke aku! HAHA. Gelak guling2 ah ape lagi. Aku tak caye. Sumpah tak caye. HAHA. "Aku rase aku suke kat kau lahh". '-_- HAHA. GILA! Tp die keep on btau and die ckp tak tipu sume. Aku takot die nganjing je. HAHA. Sekali dah bersumpah siap. Wah suke betul tu kan. HAHA. Tape lahh. Tp when i think over back. I thought that it was not right. Byk masalah akan timbul! Kalau aku dgn die. I mean... Susah ah! And ternyate jangkaan aku tepat ah. Byk gile probs timbul. Pening gile okeh! Sheesh! So again aku ckp dgn die yg kitorg tak leh p ah. Sume2. Honestly, aku tym tu dah ade lahh rase suke, syg tuh . Tp i am not sure of my own feelings. Coz I know how much i love my ex. Way way way too much yg aku rase susah untuk aku syg org lain. Aku takut die hanye pengganti. Aku tanak wat anak org sakit sebab CINTA. HAHA. So , aku nak back off ah. Tp jodoh ennn. Last2, probs sume setel and we are together smpai skang. :)

Teringat lagi tym nak declare tu. Die dah mintak byk kali kot. Tp i refused . Sebab tak ready lagi. And ade lahh one time when i think i am ready, "Awak nak jd BF org takk? Belikan org rantai dulu. " And 28 Jun tuh kitorg jumpe, die belikan rantai and that is it! :) *cam fairytale takk,? HAHA. TAk lgsg. This is reality.

And now dah 5bulan. :) Rase sekejap je. Alhamdullilah. Tak byk masalah aku dgn die. And makin hari syg nih makin bertambah. And now i am celebrating our anni without u! Sedih! Bile nak balik nih!

"Ya Allah ya Tuhanku. Kau berkatikanlah rase kasih kami ini ya Allah. Jauhkanlah kami dr maksiat dan hasutan syaitan ya Allah. Panjangkanlah jodoh kami ya Allah hingga ke akhir hayat. Jika dia bukan sepatutnye menjadi suamiku, putuskanlah kami di tengah jalan. Kau tahu apa yg terbaik untuk kami , ya Allah. Kami mohon berikan petunjuk dan jauhkan kami dr anasir2 syaitan ya Allah. Amin amin amin ya rabbal alamin."

2 comments:

top_ace7 said...

sweet doooowwwwhhh ! hahahahahahahahahaha.

.d.a.y.a.n.g. said...

hahha. kau kan. nganjing ke ape?? ape yg sweet ha..? gelak tanak pjg lg tuh hahahaha bongokss.